Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the Lord
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him
This is what God gave me this morning as I (Laura Jane) wrestled with a few things. I loved being a part of OAPY and now it is done. What do I do now? I am anxious to get to the ministry of Esperanza. But what is that? As Esperanza is in a time of change, we are unsure. So I trust in the Lord and I keep plugging in where I can be helpful while I dwell here at Esperanza and enjoy the solitude.
Delighting myself in the Lord is an interesting concept to me. Is it the same as loving Him or does it look different? I don't know. So I contemplate about it and delight in the beauty He has created around me. When I delight in the Lord, He will guide me to the desires of my heart! That is a pretty awesome thing and, honestly, if I am delighting in Him what else could my heart desire? I love this concept. Once I take myself out of it and just delight in Him then He is all I desire. My desires are His desires. Cool!
And when I trust in Him, he promises to shine through me like the sun at dawn. And when the sun comes up here we all seem to wake up. The dawn time is beautiful and peaceful time often. Wow! What a promise that I could be beautiful and peaceful to those I serve because of Jesus in me. (Not sure anyone has even put peaceful in the same sentence as my name.)
I do have a cause that I would love to help grow! The noonday sun is hot and hard to miss. It would be amazing if God helped make "my cause" enticing and known to those around me without me being annoying.
So I must be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him. I love this! I can take a break. He knows why I am here and he knows how to best use me. He knows how to make that known to those around me as well. Later in Psalm 37 it says, "do not fret-it leads only to evil." Well okay. I should not fret, no need to worry. Just trust in Him.
For now I make OAPY DVD picture movies and write each camper a letter with scripture God gives me for each one. I stay in touch with each of them via Facebook and speak or write truth into their lives as we interact. And I pray for them! So rest assured, ministry is happening.